My business world is such a quirky, not-normal one. We like to pretend we are normal and a necessary component of any legit business, but we are a strange bunch. Entrepreneurial, merciless, and smart — oftentimes a lethal combination. This week I was at a lovely cocktail party of my tribe and found a whole crop of newbies. Fascinating. I have a pragmatic trait of not noticing newbies until they have made it past their first year — why waste my time? I love the hypocrisy of my buddies telling one newbie that his mentor/team leader is a great guy (he’s not — a complete ruthless asshole) and that he’ll learn a lot from them (only how to be screwed over). I wanted to tell the kid to make sure that he gets everything in writing up front, but hey, why be a downer when the free alcohol is flowing?
This week was good and flew by without me getting through my To Do list. Of course, I am not helping matters as I sit here and write, but hey, it’s Friday so WTF and TGIF! I am trying to get back on a regular schedule and actually made it to the gym pretty regularly and I’m feeling great. Still fluffy and not losing weight, but hey, I have to remember to be patient.
I continue to find my relationship with the Hunter so interesting as I look from the outside in. If we had met anytime before now (aka before empty nest), I doubt I would have been interested. During my previous stage in life, a Provider was key to me. That’s why I didn’t leave my Ex — I liked the $$ in the bank and the security he provided. But I digress — sorry, but my writing today is wandering all over the place in some random free thought streams. I actually just wrote two paragraphs that are going onto another post because it’s off topic. Wait, do I even have a topic today? I digress further…
Oh, yeah, the Hunter and our relationship! We are in a comfortable place. I am learning that I am a stronger force than I thought. I am learning to sit back and let other people take care of me. I am learning to talk about my anxieties and concerns because he (and my dear friends) will provide the love and support to talk me off the ledge. I am learning that I will be a great success — just like my affirmations tell me — but I have to be patient a bit longer. I am learning to say no to volunteer projects that suck my time (I just bequeathed a great one to Robin — she needs this to get out more anyway), I am learning that I am not a domestic goddess in any way, shape or form, so I just need to give up that charade and move on. I am learning that the Hunter is a good man with dreams and hopes that are finally coming true. I am learning to trust him completely and to never be afraid to tell him anything (scars from my past life are healing).
A year ago I was in a different place. One of apprehensive excitement because both the Hunter and I were launching our new companies. Folks continue to shake their head in amazement at our courage (or foolishness) in starting two companies at the same time, but I like it because we both understand 100% what the other is feeling. We are in a good place. I’ve got $$ in the bank, Robin and I are finally splurging on haircuts after 6 months (LOL), the Hunter has a ton of meetings set up as a result of his smash hit presentation last week, I have a HUGE meeting next week with a potential new client as a result of my relentless marketing campaign (that shit really does work!). Now my son needs to spend the weekend with his dad so I can fuck the Hunter silly this weekend.