I must have a lot to do today because here I sit in front of the computer writing this post. I tell myself that it’s me limbering/warming up my brain before I launch full tilt into this. It’s probably just procrastination plain and simple. Oh, I have fired off half a dozen emails/texts this morning, so it’s not like I’m ignoring everything. I just have some heavy lifting that needs to be done today, so I’ll have to buckle down and crank out the work today.
I wrote about figuring out a viable career Plan B yesterday. It still holds true. Then part of me thinks that pivoting my career means admitting that I have failed. That stings a bit. I have been 20+ years in my profession and never achieved a high level of success that many of my peers enjoy. Then again, I am more recognized than many. I would say that I’m solidly in the middle of the pack, average. I had a boss once say that one of his mentor said that showing up and surviving was success in our profession. If that’s the case, than I guess I am successful.
I am liked, but not popular. Nobody picks me to be on their team. Is that because somewhere along the line I botched it and made some social miscues? Maybe. I can think of a couple of instances where perhaps I made mistakes. In addition, I have always been labeled a “mom”. That doesn’t help you in a ruthless, shark environment. Plus in another article, there is a bias towards women that they are under-estimated in their knowledge and negotiating skills. I see that all the time.
I have been reading some forums of my profession and the young sharks out there are truly ruthless. Numbers are king and they are forgetting the people part of the business. I have always focused on the people part and the communications because I like those aspects far more than the numbers. I let smarter people worry about the numbers. Everybody likes to run them their own way, so who am I to push mine? Besides I am a communications major, so my math tends to be fuzzy coupled with modest Excel skills.
I have leadership skills, but I’m much better as a wingman. I am a strategic thinker, but need help weeding out the many ideas I have. I am personable, but don’t develop deep ties with clients. I am smart, but as I grow older, I don’t want to dive deep into an analysis. I do great in a sales pitch, but I hate the cold calling and initial business development stuff that leads to a pitch. I am a whole package of pluses and minuses, but then again, aren’t we all?
Today I will be a shark. Swimming around and biting stuff. Let me focus on achieving results. I promised some great things to my business coach. A few have fallen off the radar due to no fault of mine, but I should push to replace them. Until I have Plan B underway, my Maggie & Co is the boat I am sailing, so she needs a captain at the helm and a firm compass heading.